Tuesday
The Sunny State.....Me?.....Hmmmmm we may be a good fit
So lately I keep looking west more and more and my heart keeps thinking, oh just beyond those mountains, then some more mountains, I think I could find some happy. Oh to hear the roaring ocean splashing up on those big sandy beaches that are warm and inviting, beckoning to me, "Becky, come lie in my warmth and soak up some sun, let your worries wash away in the tide". Oh it sounds splendid. I may just have to consider venturing over those layers, however many, of mountains to find my pleasant sunny glory. California here I come...Someday maybe soon.
Monday
cOmE to LeArN tHinGs WhEn YoUr OldEr!
So now that im vastly approaching the on-coming number of 24 I have come to realize a few things in my little short so far (sometimes feels like forever) life. I feel that rounding that turn of the early transition into twenties held alot that would throw me off my feet only to make me get up stronger. Going from 19 to 20 is not really a big deal, but can seem like it. But going from 23 to 24 only puts me that much closer to 30 and then my eyes open wide like a deer in the headlights, or a person in a canoe that just sighted a waterfall ahead and rapidly begin flailing their arms and yelling, No! Go Back, Go Back! hahaha but once you free fall over that waterfall, you find yourself slightly scaithed at times, but overall not in too bad of shape. Maybe even a little wiser. All and all when I think of everything, I come to realize im ready to ditch the number 23 and put on my year 24 gear. Full steam ahead im ready for whatever may come my way.
In my 23 years so far I have come to realize (not without pain and broken hearts along the way) that you really can't trust a whole lot of people. Everyone is bound to hurt you in one way or another at some point along the way in life, but the difference between those we continue to keep around us and those we decide to put out of our lives and try to nurse the wound they left, is that no matter what, in your heart you know you can go to them with a heart full of pain and eyes full of tears, and they will embrace you fully, even if it was they who caused the hurt. You come to learn who you want standing by your side when life gets you down. And you sadley come to learn who will quickly abandon you as soon as situations get "rough". It's those who stay by your side no matter how deep you fall into despair or how angry you yell at them that you will always need.
I have had a lot of let downs in my life by family and friends. But one thing I do know is that I have also grown closer to the people who matter. Its always going to be a constant struggle, some may fall away along the way, not really ready to forge in the same direction, and others will join up on the path. I just hope that in my 23 years I have become wise enough to know the poison some hide in their hearts from those who's hearts are full of pure intent. I know I will continue to be hurt, but I am comforted knowing that those who have come to be "polished in the bumpy grinds of life" along by my side will be there. And I for them.
Casey's parable of the Tree of Life!
So I got to talk to Casey on Mothers Day and it was so great! I really enjoyed our talk with eachother and it only proved more and more how excited I am to get to sit and talk with him in person again. Less than 5 months left! Yay! In our conversation we discussed how we were doing in reading the book of mormom (Casey and I are both reading it from cover to cover before he returns home) we began to discuss Nephi and I was telling him how much I really enjoy the Tree of Life parable, and Casey shared this story from his mission with me:
Casey's real life episode of the Tree of Life Parable
Casey was walking home one night with his companion in Vacaville, Ca, it was dark and a little later in the evening. They came to a section of the sidewalk that runs parallel to the river on one side and a hill on the other. Being narrow or dangerous it had a metal handrail along the side for walkers to hold onto. Casey grabbed a hold then turned to his companion and said, "hey look! its the iron rod", then they continued on the path when Casey realized it was becoming super foggy along the way and then he heard laughter, he turned and looked up to where the laughter was coming from and found that up on the hill across the river was a bar with a balcony outside. Scattered upon that balcony were many drunken people laughing really loud when one said while pointing down "look! its the mormons" pointing at Casey and his companion. Casey and his companion continued on and walked home.
When Casey told this to me I couldn't believe it, he actually experienced his own parable related to the scriptures, but not only was it people laughing or the iron rod, or the fog it was all of it. The entire story. I thought it was amazing and was so glad he told it to me.
Casey's real life episode of the Tree of Life Parable
Casey was walking home one night with his companion in Vacaville, Ca, it was dark and a little later in the evening. They came to a section of the sidewalk that runs parallel to the river on one side and a hill on the other. Being narrow or dangerous it had a metal handrail along the side for walkers to hold onto. Casey grabbed a hold then turned to his companion and said, "hey look! its the iron rod", then they continued on the path when Casey realized it was becoming super foggy along the way and then he heard laughter, he turned and looked up to where the laughter was coming from and found that up on the hill across the river was a bar with a balcony outside. Scattered upon that balcony were many drunken people laughing really loud when one said while pointing down "look! its the mormons" pointing at Casey and his companion. Casey and his companion continued on and walked home.
When Casey told this to me I couldn't believe it, he actually experienced his own parable related to the scriptures, but not only was it people laughing or the iron rod, or the fog it was all of it. The entire story. I thought it was amazing and was so glad he told it to me.
Tuesday
4 in a row! What is my luck?
Seriously this past weekend was a horrible weekend as far as movies! I had two netflix movies that came in the mail (the day those come, it's like a mini christmas, I get all giddy and excited) well I hate to say that all this giddiness and excitement was a big ol' waste! Before I even watched my 2 netflix, I rented 2 from redbox. (I know pretty pathetic). So I watched my netflix ones and they were so freakin stupid. So "luckily" I had my two redbox movies to rely on. Yeah right! These were just as freakin stupid. Grrrrr. So here are the movies and the ratings I decided to give them.
Movie 1: The Romantics - Made it through all of this one and kept waiting for it to get good. It was a movie loaded with well known actors and actresses, so I automatically thought, this has gotta be good. Well I spent most the movie with my mouth hanging open, thinking, "WHAT?" and "Oh my gosh he's so stupid", "there all so messed up" and yadi yadi. So I give this movie a C-. Not so so horrible, but not at all very good.
Movie 2: The Kids are Alright - First of all I mistook this DVD for another I had been wanting to see about a dad who tries to get all his kids together for a holiday or something and they all have there own thing going on and such, but it looked really good. Well I thought the movie I rented was this until I got it and read its description. Not the same movie! But thought, "hey! I will check it out". I pop it in when in the very first scene it shows two teenager kids doing lines, then beating eachother up. Mom asks "whats this rated" I reply, "PG-13". The movie continues and it shows a lesbian love scene when I dropped my mouth and skipped the scene ahead thinking what the junk, they sure allow more crap into these PG-13 movies than they used to. We decide if it shows one more bad scene, were done. So it continues along and BAM! another bad scene. I was up out of my seat so fast and flung that DVD out spurting in an outrage "its PG-13, how the crap do they have this stuff in it?" I begin to put the dvd in its case to seal and hop it in the mail, when I notice right there on the front, there it is, that dag nabbin R. I give this movie an F. Now im sure it may have some important plot and maybe even turns good, but I was in no way going to give it a shot to try and earn a better grade.
Movie 3: Skyline - OMG what else do I say. I think I repeated that phrase in my head over 500 times, that, and WTF! This movie was so freaking wierd. And in the end... jeez, I can't even bring myself to talk about it more, it was so wierd. It was intense in parts, but the fact that it had no real known actors in it should have been my first clue. When the one minor actor who I recognized from a movie 10+ years ago died in the beginning, should have been my second clue. But it took me clear to the end with a dumbfound look on my face and in my mind to realize that movie was just lame. I rate it a C. It was intense and kept me guessing, but oh my heck it was so freaking wierd.
Movie 4: Country Strong - After the complete dissapointment from movie number 3 (might I just add not all 4 were viewed in one night, im not that lame) I decided I needed a feel good movie to clear my mind. I figure what better way than to watch a movie with country music, Tim McGraw and Gwyeneth Paltrow. Yeah well I was wrong. I have never watched a more depressing movie, okay maybe Gettysburg was more depressing or Pearl Harbor, but come on the character never pulls it together, she keeps falling and failing until the end she makes a good come back then kills herself. What kind of movie is this. How am I supposed to watch her struggle so hard then make a comeback just to end it. I was thouroughly kinda depressed about it. The movie wasn't all that bad, but really I was super shocked with the killer ending haha. I dunno, just wan't my cup of tea. I rate this movie a Solid C+
Well that sums up my movie ratings. And my super long ranting Blog Post on that. But I just had to vent this, and what better way than to my random blog. :)
Movie 1: The Romantics - Made it through all of this one and kept waiting for it to get good. It was a movie loaded with well known actors and actresses, so I automatically thought, this has gotta be good. Well I spent most the movie with my mouth hanging open, thinking, "WHAT?" and "Oh my gosh he's so stupid", "there all so messed up" and yadi yadi. So I give this movie a C-. Not so so horrible, but not at all very good.
Movie 2: The Kids are Alright - First of all I mistook this DVD for another I had been wanting to see about a dad who tries to get all his kids together for a holiday or something and they all have there own thing going on and such, but it looked really good. Well I thought the movie I rented was this until I got it and read its description. Not the same movie! But thought, "hey! I will check it out". I pop it in when in the very first scene it shows two teenager kids doing lines, then beating eachother up. Mom asks "whats this rated" I reply, "PG-13". The movie continues and it shows a lesbian love scene when I dropped my mouth and skipped the scene ahead thinking what the junk, they sure allow more crap into these PG-13 movies than they used to. We decide if it shows one more bad scene, were done. So it continues along and BAM! another bad scene. I was up out of my seat so fast and flung that DVD out spurting in an outrage "its PG-13, how the crap do they have this stuff in it?" I begin to put the dvd in its case to seal and hop it in the mail, when I notice right there on the front, there it is, that dag nabbin R. I give this movie an F. Now im sure it may have some important plot and maybe even turns good, but I was in no way going to give it a shot to try and earn a better grade.
Movie 3: Skyline - OMG what else do I say. I think I repeated that phrase in my head over 500 times, that, and WTF! This movie was so freaking wierd. And in the end... jeez, I can't even bring myself to talk about it more, it was so wierd. It was intense in parts, but the fact that it had no real known actors in it should have been my first clue. When the one minor actor who I recognized from a movie 10+ years ago died in the beginning, should have been my second clue. But it took me clear to the end with a dumbfound look on my face and in my mind to realize that movie was just lame. I rate it a C. It was intense and kept me guessing, but oh my heck it was so freaking wierd.
Movie 4: Country Strong - After the complete dissapointment from movie number 3 (might I just add not all 4 were viewed in one night, im not that lame) I decided I needed a feel good movie to clear my mind. I figure what better way than to watch a movie with country music, Tim McGraw and Gwyeneth Paltrow. Yeah well I was wrong. I have never watched a more depressing movie, okay maybe Gettysburg was more depressing or Pearl Harbor, but come on the character never pulls it together, she keeps falling and failing until the end she makes a good come back then kills herself. What kind of movie is this. How am I supposed to watch her struggle so hard then make a comeback just to end it. I was thouroughly kinda depressed about it. The movie wasn't all that bad, but really I was super shocked with the killer ending haha. I dunno, just wan't my cup of tea. I rate this movie a Solid C+
Well that sums up my movie ratings. And my super long ranting Blog Post on that. But I just had to vent this, and what better way than to my random blog. :)
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