Quitting part 1! What the heck am I going to do...

So its no secret that I am a huge fan of caffinated drinks. Infact I usually tend to hit up Dr. Copsi on a regular basis, and take the deep plunge down Mtn. Dew! At the end of my day I usually curl up with a cozy amount of my "manna from heaven" and watch some T.V or read a book. Completely normal right? Ummm NO! I hate the fact that I crave the icy cold beverages that are loaded with sugar and have absolutely no potential health benefits. Not to mention the usual break outs on my skin, the horrible headaches if I tend to slack on my slurpage, and the many many horrible health risks and effects. But even these drinks, which seem to be so wonderfully amazing yet are my horrible little enemy, are so difficult to quit. Ahh this must be that horrible thing they call an addiction. Well then I must take the proper steps. Hello my name is Becky and I have an addiction. And to be honest as I type this I just polished off a can of diet pepsi. Seems I may have my work cut out for me yet. But I am going to try my best to quit! This is what I will call part 1 of my three part quitting event. Part 2 will be about the middle probably most difficult part of this entire process. But if I can write about it real and raw in the moment, maybe I can look back on it as a reminder or a lesson that I dont ever want to go through it again. This is not by any means the first time I have quit or even attempted to quit. But this is the first time I will actually be open to myself and others about its reality. Wish me luck! I am for sure going to need plenty of it. ;)

Zzzzz....Hummmmm...Zzzzz

So I found a new thing out about myself... Dum de de dum! (that was my little trumpet sound), anywho so I already know these wierd habits I already have while I sleep.

A) I snore! and apparantly pretty loud

B) I talk in my sleep! Sometimes I carry on full conversations I guess

C) I have the wierdest dreams...ask anyone!

D) I twitch. With my eyes, mouth or fingers..sometimes my entire arms.

E) I sleep eat! I will sometimes wake up with crumbs all over me and a huge ol' tummy ache and an odd taste in my mouth! Oh I just downed a whole jar of cashews.. hmmmm

F) I tend to drool sometimes. hehehehe

and now apparantly I HUM in my sleep.

Well there ya go! I thought the over obundance of oddness while I slept was enough but I guess I am venturing out in new areas.

Maybe one day I will be able to shop online in my sleep.

I recon thats not far off!

Blog Questions...your next...

Okay Kirs I continued the Blogging Questionaire!

1. Where in the world could you stay forever?

Oh man, I could seriously go to some country like Ireland or France and never get bored, if I had the ability to stay in a cute bed and breakfast the entire time, I would stay forever.

2. If you could have any job and be great at it, what would you do?

Honestly I would be a Nurse. My Grandma was a nurse and I look up to her so much. There isn't anything she can't do. If I had the ability to do it I so would. Just to be able to be there for someone and help them would be an amazing ability.

3. If you had the money, would you really hire a maid?

Uh! Heck Yes!!

4. What is your favorite board game?

I love all board games that make you laugh or think and are challenging. I seriously love the games where you have to make stuff up from your mind. Whether it be acting, lying, drawing...I love it all! Especially the times your laughing so hard you think you may pee your pants.

5. What is your favorite family activity?

Im a huge fan of family traditions. So along with that I would have to say anything that involved being together. Games, Holidays, Family Reunions or just a weenie roast at Grandma and Grandpas. I love family.

6. What do you use daily that you could really live without?

The T.V

7. What is your favorite time of year?

Fall! I love love love Halloween and Christmas and all the in between. Fall is the best. The smells of chilly air and crumpling leaves, fresh apple cider and donuts. Pumpkins with candles. Snow, the whole Christmas Spirit. Oh I just love the beginning and transitions of Fall into Christmastime.

8. What is your favorite movie?

I dont have a favorite...I have FAVORITES and they are many. ;)

my inner hippie...

So its Saturday and we decided to take a drive up to Zions National Park. Oh I never tire of that place. Although at times it seems odd, the overflow of Subaru's or "granola cars" never seem to bother me up their. The smell of Sunscreen applied to bare legs and arms with a hint of hiking sweat and a gentle breeze blowing in the open window of the Zion Shuttle Bus is almost a comforting scent. (unless your on the wrong bus with the wrong tourists) It is a place of peace and amazement and their are always new adventures.

Well Westin and I decided we were going to give ourselves "hippie names" because being in Zion you can't help but feel your inner wild child yearning to be free. So when we are in Zion we are known by different names now. Westin is known as Oak and I am Harmony. We call dad Nazareth hahahaha he didn't really like it.

In the real world amidst all the stress and chaos you wouldn't be able to pick me out from the other frazzle haired crazies walking around the street just dealing with the day to day; and road ragers and constant nag of people and tasks around me driving me insane, I may even utter a few explicits.. but when I am in Zion be quiet because the only word you will hear me utter is ....Omm!

HAHAHAHA

true friendships never end! even if the world trys to say so...

Sometimes friends walk into our lives and then they are gone,

but they are never really gone.

Some leave us for better and their prints

will always remain on our hearts.

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Day 10

Ten things that inspire me

1. Nature

2. Cities

3. People

4. Love

5. Faith

6. Adventure

7. Challenges

8. Changes

9. Music

10. Words

My life is a story that is still being written, and each day it changes. And I love it!!

Day 9

Ten things I love from my Childhood

1. My Imagination, oh how the world seemed so colorful and bright and full of adventure

2. Summer Break: sleeping in, staying up late.

3. My childhood boyfriends! I can't tell you how many times Ive been "married" in my neighbors back yards, or how many little love notes I wish i'd kept. I even got those plastic 25 cent rings from one boyfriend. Oh the days!

4. Sleepovers: and all the fun those entailed...night games, movies, shopping, girly girl fun. etc.

5. Playing House with Nilly. My Grandparents basement was the greatest "apartment" for me and Nilly to be grown up women who ruled the world, (and had hot boyfriends);P

6. Living in the "world" not the "real world" (sometimes being grown-up just sucks). haha

7. Night Games: Ghost in the Graveyard, The many forms of Tag, Fugitive..."ready or not here I come!" or/ "peaches peaches pumpkin pie, if your not ready holler I". hahaha and many more. Sometimes the best night games were just door bell ditching and so on..hehehe

8. The fact that I swore I was going to be a lawyer or a doctor or a Nurse or something amazing. It never occured to me at the time all the school that would be involved or blood or trama...Everything was always so sugar coated back then. It was better that way I think.

9. Kool-Aid Stands! It's so cool how making $2+ dollars could make you feel so rich. After a long hot afternoon of selling warm sticky paper cups of Kool-Aid for 25 cents. It felt so earned. and then we would blow it on candy haha...

10. Playing on the playgrounds. The ground was always hot lava or the ocean and you couldn't touch it because you'd melt or the "gators" would get you. (I have no Idea why gators would be in the ocean, but...)My days of playing on the playground usually revolved around a Star Wars theme, im not really sure why? But me and my friend were always the damsels in distress and the boys would have to save us. Good times.

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Day 8

Ten things I dont ever want to take forgranted

1. My freedom

2. My family

3. My rights

4. True Love

5. My life

6. Education

7. Having a Job

8. Having a stable home

9. Who I am

10. My faith

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Along with my lists of Day's 7 and 8 I would like to mention that it would no doubt be amazing to just meet people from my own family history. My grandparents' grandparent's would for sure be cool to meet. And their cousins and brothers and sisters etc. etc. I want to meet 'em all.

Ten Days of Ten Things

Day 7

Ten amazing women from history that I would love to meet.

1. Emma Smith

2. Amelia Earhart

3. Audrey Hepburn

4.Queen Elizabeth

5. Jane Austen

6. Helen Keller

7. Mary - Mother of Jesus

8. Martha Jane Cannary Burke---Calamity Jane

9. Rosa Parks

10. Pocahantas

Wow, I could choose many women I would love to meet but these ten are for sure some I would love to chit chat with. I could learn so so so much from these amazing women. Some of them I just would love to meet because they have a spit-fire attitude like myself and I think we could be great pals.

I would love to sit down with Emma and talk and learn of her challenges and hardships in which she stood as an amazing woman and a supportive wife. She amazes me so much I can't even put it into words how much I look up to this lady. I would love to ride in a plane with Amelia and learn her history, maybe she would show me where she "landed" and we could chat of her great adventures and bravery; Audrey Hepburn is a classic! Who wouldn't want to meet this fire-ball woman who has super amazing confidence and is so freakin adorable. I could eat my breakfast in front of a Tiffany store any day with her. Queen Elizabeth is another amazing woman to me, she freakin ran a country with no King. She did an amazing job too. I would love to gain some of her strengths and talents.

I would love to understand the amazing mind of Jane Austen who has written many adventerous and romantic books we all love to read. I wonder if her life is a never ending "book" of adventure and romance...Helen Keller is another amazing lady I would love to communicate with. I have always wanted to learn sign language and to be able to use it to communicate with Helen would be absolutely amazing!

I can't even put into words how neat it would be to sit and talk with Mary, the mother of Jesus. It wouldn't even be right to say anything other than the fondness and respect I hold for this woman. I would love to sit and chat on a bus ride sitting right next to Rosa Parks, how cool would that be. And to run through the forest singing magical songs about the wind with Pocahantas.. just kidding, but I know I could learn alot from this beautiful native.

And last but not least I could sit along side Calamity Jane spit balling and being a fiery woman in a bar (id drink water of coarse ;) and then having a good ol' western round of shootin'. Good times are sure to be had if I were to spend any amount of time with these great and noble women of our history.

Ten Days of Ten Things..

Day 6

Ten men from the past that I would really love to meet..

1. Joseph Smith

2. Abraham Lincoln

3. King Arthur

4. Leonardo Da Vinci

5. Frank Lloyd Wright

6. Albert Einstein

7. Babe Ruth

8. Mahatma Ghandi

9. John Wayne

10. Moses

There are many men from the past (or before I was here) that I would love to meet. But these are my top ten. I would love to just sit down and chat with these amazing men. They all had powerful interests and beliefs and led fasinating lives which allows them to be "amazing men in history".

I would totally take Ghandi out for some pizza or like an all you can eat buffet and tell him to have a hay day. Id ride horses with John Wayne and learn the quick draw. I would hit a couple home runners with Babe, create some inventions with Albert; design the coolest house with Frank; be creative with Leonardo; sit on the Giant Lincoln statue with...Lincoln; Sit in his noble presence with King Arthur ;) and of coarse chat it up and learn from Moses and Joseph.

I could hear all their stories for hours.

10 Days of 10 Things

Day 5

Ten awesome places I really want to visit..

1. New York City

2. Ireland

3. Paris

4. Egypt

5. China

6. Venice

7. Germany

8. Denmark

9. Rome

10. Switzerland

I would love to travel across America and

anywhere in the World.

10 days of 10 things

Day 4

Ten things that terrify me! Really

1. Losing a loved one
2. Spiders/Bugs/Insects
3. Clowns
4. Tight Spaces
5. Being forced out of my comfort zone
6. Car wrecks
7. Viewings (funeral viewings)
8. Horror Movies
9. Snakes
10. Horrible People in the world

Thats me on a more serious note. Im not always so hard edged and spouting my opinions. Although I do tend to speak my mind ;) Im just me and thats ok. Fears and all.

10 Days of Ten Things

Day 3

Ten fads I think are wierd and will never understand...

1. Boys wearing their baby sisters pants...aka "skinny jeans".

why would you want to exentuate what is going on in there, or lack of it. 8P

2. Trucker Hats! Ummmm why?

3. Jelly Shoes.

First of all they make your feet really sweaty which defeats the whole open sandle type purpose. But if you were extra classy your "jelly's" had glitter. ;)

4. Leggings!

Not so much that people wear these under their pants, but the fact that some people started mistaking them AS pants! Hello I can see your butt crack! and neon green underwear.

5. Uggs! They are EVERYWHERE.

People even wear them in the middle of the summer! From Top to Bottom it would go...Sunglasses...Tank top...Shorts....& BAM!! Uggs. Thats seriously like an oxi-moron. What are you a southern Eskimo? Its 110 degrees out here invest in some flip flops. Whatever floats your boat I guess!

6. Blue Tooth headsets.

For the longest time people all over the world became crazy and started talking to themselves. Ok well for the longest time thats what I thought, until I realized they were actually talking to someone...through their ear piece. So many times I would have almost full conversations with someone only to realize that I was the one talking to myself, and I didn't even have a blue tooth. :(

7. SFPIIM: Speaking Full Phrases In Instant Messaging! OMG, TTYL, WTF, JK, LOL, ROTFLMAO, G2G, GR8, CUL8TR, and my personal favorite... HMWTIDSICBHOT. which says...Hey Mom What Time Is Dinner So I Can Be Home on Time? hahahaha ok so I made that one up. WTF? hahaha LOL

8. The Sticker Family!

So it is cool now to show the world how many people are in your family by putting stickers on your cars. "Oh how cute, they have 3 boys and 2 girls and a puppy and a cat"..I feel so much better knowing that. Like I care to see that the Dad likes to surf, the Mom has curly hair, the Boy likes to skateboard, yadiyadiyadi. I guess it makes the red light or traffic jam go by faster learning someone elses family history. Thanks "Johnson" Family. And I WILL try to remember What Jesus Would Do.
I want to see a crazy cat lady put some on her car so it will have a stick figure in a moo-moo and like 57 cat decals. AWESOME. What about broken families? Or mixed...oh this could get very interesting.

9. Livestrong bracelets:

Ok I will admit when the yellow livestrong bracelet came out I was like ooooh I gotta have one. But now I have one in every color for every cancer or disorder known to man and I also have some that say CTR and like Adopt a Pet and such, come one people im running out of arm room and the ability to support every cause on the planet.

10. Purse Pets.

Dogs were not made to shop all day while riding in a Prada bag. Poor thing want's to Gucci outa there ;)

10 Days of 10 things

Day 2
Movies I could watch over and over and over...

1. John Tucker Must Die..
"I'll let you in on a little secret. My mom says I'm special on the inside"; "There's indisputable evidence, that I might have caused the explosion... and actually, he will tell you that it's my fault... but clearly I said to him "Dear God, MAN, you are on fire... RUN for your life."

2. Dumb and Dumber..
"We got no food, no jobs... our PETS' HEADS ARE FALLING OFF!"---"I got robbed by a sweet old lady on a motorized cart. I didn't even see it coming"--- "I excpected the Rockies to be a little rockier than this, yeah! That John Denvers full of $h!t man."

3. The Saint

4. The Lovely Bones

5. What Happens in Vegas..
"You know what? I can get a couple of my brother's loser ass friends to go over to Mason's apartment , knock on the door and when he opens it wham! They'll junk-punch him all up in his man business and he'll fall to the floor whaling and crying "why?" and then we'll say "you know why!"

6. Any of the Classic Disney Movies

7. Any movie with John Wayne, or Audrey Hepburn

8. One Missed Call

9. Clueless..
"I would like to say this. Tardiness is not something you can do on your own. Many, many people contributed to my tardiness. I would like to thank my parents for never giving me a ride to school, the LA city bus driver who took a chance on an unknown kid and last but not least, the wonderful crew from McDonalds who spend hours making those egg McMuffins without which I'd never be tardy"---"So okay, I don't want to be a traitor to my generation and all but I don't get how guys dress today. I mean, come on, it looks like they just fell out of bed and put on some baggy pants and take their greasy hair - ew - and cover it up with a backwards cap and like, we're expected to swoon? I don't think so".

10. She's the Man..
I skipped a couple grades. I'm brilliant. Shh"---"Speaking as a completely objective third party observer with absolutely no personal interest in the matter"..

hahaha many more, but these ones have been known to be in my DVD player for long periods of time. :)

10 days of 10 things!

Day 1
Ten things that annoy me
(in no order)

1. Flaky people! Seriously annoying

2. Cereal Commercials...no I do not feel inspired to buy your cereal now after seeing that creepy 30 second clip on t.v.

3. People rubbing toes or fingers together and make that dry scraping noise. Ahhhh its so gross!

4. Snobs!..“The true snob never rests; there is always a higher goal to attain, and there are, by the same token, always more and more people to look down upon”. ...I am so sick of snobby people who think that now they have some money they dont care about you anymore. Hey! I have money!! Maybe just not as much as you but I still have some.(I got like some quarters and dimes) pshhh.. :P

5. Posers! Meaning people who act like something they totally aren't. Or those creapy old navy mannequins. Psycho

6. Know it alls. If you think you know it all dont come talk to me about it, because I really do know it all, and your wrong ;)

7. The 3D Movie craze. Seriously everythings is 3D now. Like I care to see some water droplets flying at me, I will go out in a rainstorm and look up for that.

8. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time. I know where my watch is buddy, where the heck is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the bathroom is?

9. When people say "It's always in the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the heck would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

10. Emo's. I know your troubled but um keep it to yourself! haha jk I really do care, just not for your fashion.

Project H.U.G

Okay you guys I am so super excited about my new project, I can't even stand how excited it makes me. I love it!
Its called project HUG and it stands for HOPE, UNITE and GIVE and I just started it so its still just a baby! But it has been an idea in my head for quite some time now and it just kinda started forming and now its somewhat here. (If any of that even made any sense). I want to share my "message" on this project and want to encourage anyone who stops by and reads this to spread the word. Spread a hug to everyone and anyone around you. Everyone can use a hug and it never hurts to give back in any way we can. Volunteer in your community or abroad. Help a needy family or friend. Whatever you do, just be involved and love what you do. There is nothing more fulfilling in this life than donating your time and/or love to those around us who are lacking something in their lives. If everyone was to give 1 hug a day to a complete stranger I honestly believe our world would be more peaceful. I mean come on, so much happiness. :) Hug Someone!



and now the beginning of it all:

Project: HUG
Hope, Unite, and Give
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About 4 months ago my youngest Brother Westin had to have his entire colon removed, and was in Primary Children’s Hospital for 10 days. While my brother was in the hospital, I and my parents (rotating) stayed our nights in the Ronald McDonald House. At the time it was our most affordable choice since we came from 4 hours away.
While in the Ronald McDonald House I couldn’t help but feel like I was in the home of a great big family where everyone was united. It was such a wonderful feeling to know that you are not alone and you have people to relate to who are all going through something. I was also so touched by how much the RMH helped families, and how communities and people from all over help in keeping it running.
I’ve always saved my pop tops to donate but decided I wanted to do more. That’s when I decided to gather hygiene supplies to donate, because many people have to travel from far and sometimes they don’t have time to pack, leaving them without basic items such as toothpaste, floss, shampoo, soap etc. It’s a trivial thing but I know that it can mean so much to those who need it.
I am so thankful for the blessings I have in my life, and I am so glad to say that my 16 year old brother has healed and continues to heal amazingly every day.
Today I want to send a HUG. I hope you can feel it. And I hope that the love and support will encourage everyone to help in any way they can. If we all do a little it can do so much. Get involved, help others and if nothing else, share a hug. I don’t know anyone in this world who can have too many hugs and sometimes a hug can go further than anything else.
Together we can hope for the better, Unite with others, and give back.

*Share any comments and/or ideas: hopeuniteandgive@gmail.com*


“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone”.

“The best thing to hold onto in life is each other”.

“Not to live for the day, that would be materialistic -- but to treasure the day. I realize that most of us live on the skin -- on the surface -- without appreciating just how wonderful it is simply to be alive at all”.

-- Audrey Hepburn

my head hurts.

Guess what? Chicken Butt....hahaha no but really. My noggin aches!

OMG Ryan is coming home!

Ok so I am super duper super duper super duper excited that my long time pal Ryan is coming home from his mission in like a week! Its been 2 years since I have seen this claimed brother of mine and I can't wait to just hug him and say hey. Wow I just can't even believe that its been 2 years. So much has happened in this time he was gone. I have lived in 4 different states moved around a lot, had 3 different jobs, dated really random guys that luckily Ryan will never have to tell me how dumb I was about because he wont know them ;)My brother Casey left on his mission. I got a cat, Westin got a dog...so much more has happened its insane. I can't wait to make new memories with my pal again though, its been so long.

a dream is a wish your.......ahhh whatever

So these past two nights I have had wierd dreams. And in both my dreams, it has involved my grandparents...(note to self, look up dream meaning of grandparents). Anyway they have been so super odd but have really made me laugh. I will post them later I have to remember them fully first. hahahaha

ummmm! eeeeeew!...

So I get to my job today and am all pepped up and wearing my brand new scrub tops, go to help a pal with a patient, and what do you know.....he throws up on us. :( It was like a bubbling volcano of nastiness, and my entire life flashed before my eyes...ok not really...but I flashed pretty quick and pushed back so luckily it only got me a bit but man it wasn't long before that smell hit me and I was gagging.. But you know what? I can't wait to go back to work. Thats when you know you love your job and are in the right place.

Who would have ever guessed!


:)

healing...oh the stories we tell...

Top 5 stories we tell about this scar!
In no order
1. I woke up on the beach in Mexico like this
2. Don't worry they caught the guy
3. Someone tried to kill him, and they threw him on a table saw.
4. Its a birth mark
5. I fell asleep and woke up with my colon gone. ??
Hahaha needless to say we have good times. ;)

gathering supplies...

Give Back!

Ok so I am super excited and want to share that excitement with the world. I have decided to do a project in which I am gathering supplies to make little hygiene kits which I am eventually going to donate to the Ronald McDonald House and I just can't wait. This may to some seem so trivial but I guarantee to you that this has sure been what it is, a "project". I opened the phone book and began to call local dental offices and hotels telling them what I am doing and asking them to donate 2-3 items such as toothbrushes, paste, floss, shampoo, soaps and lotions. I can't believe how much people have helped and as for now I have only been turned down 3 times. Yay! People have been so great some have donated hundreds of items which has been so awesome. I began putting these kits together tonight and just doing this has made me so excited and happy. To give back is such a great thing. Now I say give back and to say that would mean that I would have had to recieve something in the beginning right? Yes! And I have.

Almost 4 months ago my youngest brother Westin had to have his entire colon removed, he is 16. This was such a tramatic and stressful event but one of the greatest blessings of his and our lives. His colon was no good and had so much damage that surgery was basically his only option. He has suffered from ulcerative colitis since he was 12 and has been in pain the entire time. He finally had the darn thing removed and has done amazing! He was in the hospital for only 10 days which all his doctors were saying was the minimum he would stay. He has healed and is continuing to heal wonderfully.

During his stay in the hospital my parents alternated nights in his room (only one parent was allowed) and the other parent and I would stay the night in the Ronald McDonald House since it was our most affordable and closest choice to the hospital at the time. During this stay my heart was so touched by all the wonderful volunteers who worked at the House and for all those who made donations in order to help it run and help families who need it. If you dont know what the RMH is, please look it up. It is amazing and has helped families for years. They are run basically off of donations. Food, hygiene supplies, and bedding all of which is donated. I wanted to be a part of this so I am putting together these little hygiene kits for families who had no time to pack because someone had to be life flighted or they had to leave for the hospital in the middle of the night as many families do etc. Its my way of thanking and helping. And it feels so great! Check it out.

http://rmhc.org/?gclid=CNPQlry0nKMCFQFvbAodBSbVmg

so blessed

Oh well its about time I started to feel my peppy positive self again. And to think all I had to do this whole time was stop focusing on my problems and do something for someone else. I think we get so caught up in our own lives and selfish desires to really open our eyes to what gifts are right in front of us. Right now I am so super thankful for all that I have, those people I have in my life, and the ability and power to do something for someone else. I had been going through a couple of self loathing weeks where I just felt worthless and down on myself. I have moved to a newish area where I have had to adjust back to my surroundings and get my barings back on track. Ive had to accept the fact that I cannot control everything in my life and sometimes I have to set my pride aside. And I just needed to be awakened again to my blessings (I started to "doze" off). I have a family who at times may make me wanna ring theirs or my neck and sometimes I want nothing to do with them; but I wouldn't trade them for the world. I have the most adorable niece who has no idea how much it touches my heart to hear her say "Aunt Becky". My heart melts with every word she says and everything she does. I love her. My family may have its trials but thats where we get our strengths. I have the most amazing extended family. They are such a blessing in my life. I have the greatest friendships and some which are so rare and I feel so lucky to posess. I have 2 brothers serving missions for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and I love and support them both. I have the greatest parents and adopted parents, grandparents and adopted grandparents, cousins, and adopted cousins and I hold the world in my pocket.
I wouldn't change a thing I dont think.....some days are great trials that I feel I wont overcome, but eventually I always know I will.
Thats my thoughts today, but tomorrow they may change again....But this is always in my heart.